hamartia

wow. can't believe i neglected this blog again for so long. i don't think it's necessary to state the obvious but i'm saying it anyway: a LOT has happened since my last artwork, and no, i am not referring to art.

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for a long time, i believed that i was stronger than most. but recent events have led me to test my own strength, to recalibrate my own emotions and to evaluate the things (and people) i hold dear. no, i was not stronger than most. i was among the weak and i blinded myself into thinking that i was strong, not realizing that it was an illusion. for so long i had to endure, thinking it was a sign of strength when it fact it wasn't. i thought i was helping by mindlessly accepting but in reality i was causing more damage. i didn't realize the damage i was causing myself until it got to the point where i shattered into a thousand pieces. and only then, did i realize that i had to let go. for the first time in my life, i was strong. i let go.

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there are some chapters in our lives that need not be opened again. not because old wounds would resurface and bleed again, but because there is just no point to it anymore. we get over some people because we have realized that life is better off without them in the long run. sometimes we learn more about someone when we spend less time together and a longer distance apart. and finally i can say that i'd rather not take another chance with you.

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we say our own goodbyes, we get left with some. it still doesn't change the fact that it is always, always painful to be the one left behind. but there is beauty in goodbyes. 

delicious ambiguity.