i don't feel christmas yet. maybe something happened along the way.maybe the world forgot that it's almost christmas time.
maybe santa claus forgot to wake up this year.
maybe the world is nursing its own wounded heart, just like i am.
it's really hard to thrive in the world of adults. you try to remain unchanged, but the circumstances, the people, the decisions and the consequences eventually change you. but what's more overpowering is the emotional torture. it's a sad world out there. every smile is fleeting, every laughter shorter than temporary. this isn't the kind of world i wanted to live in. and it's the kind of world there's no escape from.
at least let me stare at the christmas lights. maybe they can light up the darkness in my heart, even just for a while.
delicious ambiguity.
