newly laundered poker face.

the world was angry at me yesterday. i probably deserved that. i have been unforgivably lazy these past few days.

i was finally working on my overdue paperwork when lo and behold, the computer shut down. and i have not saved a single sentence. there goes my first five pages of misplaced diligence. but i probably deserved that.

the electricity in the house was constantly fluctuating the whole day. i tried to fill my life threatening boredom by plugging in the TV, but all the lights in the house started flickering, switching on and off like those creepy effects in horror movies, so that meant no TV for me. but i probably deserved that.

the power supply of the house eventually gave out. we were in complete blackout while the rest of the neighbors were basking in glorious electricity. we had to call for help. "hello meralco, asan na yung kuryente namin?" i became a feast of enormous bony proportions to the mosquitoes for a few hours. but i probably deserved that.

i was sitting quietly outside the house, looking up at the stars, trying to mind my own space. i didnt ask you to bring down the whole of the heavens upon me. i never asked you to believe in me but i hoped you would. but the again, you never seemed to learn how. i never asked for your opinion on this, i merely shared my plans with you then. i didnt need you to rain on my shiny new parade. ive had enough. ive made too many mistakes for you. i didnt deserve this.

a newly laundered poker face. that's what you'll get from me this new year.

delicious ambiguity.