don't fret, it's just me.

Thursday, July 10, 2008

anhedonia.

We have to unlearn to realize the truth.
We have to get hurt to remember where we are.
We have to endure to unlearn and get hurt another day.

This isnt going to be life inspiring. Inspiration is what you find when youre happy. Happiness is not the default emotion in life. It happens on rare occasions. What really happens is that you live each day in sorrow, waiting, hurting. You live in sorrow until the day when you finally get your chance at a slice of happiness. You wait patiently, arduously, for that one slice of fleeting happiness. You hurt until then. And you hurt even more after that.

Life is not fair. It never was and never will be. Were just kidding ourselves when we say life is good and just. It isnt. Its not even happy by default.

What happens after this? What happens when you realize that life sucks and that it sucks even more each day?

You live it. You live for sorrow, you live to wait, you live to endure.
Because only then will you realize that your purpose in life is not to live a superficial existence, but to find genuine moments of happiness in a lifetime of misery.

delicious ambiguity.

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