Maya

i can feel the sun on my eyes. it's a bright day today. i stretch my wings a little and feel the cool breeze on my feathers. i open my eyes a tiny bit and the glorious sun blinds me for a moment. it's another day.

i look around me. i see trees, clouds, houses and children. i love looking at children. their tiny hands and feet amaze me. and their smiles make you happy inside. i can't smile. god knows how much i wish i can smile. it's an odd thing, the smile. everytime someone smiles, i can see through their soul, i can see faith, i can see hope. it's a wonderful thing, the smile. i wish i can smile.

i stretch out my wings and i take off. i love flying, diving into clouds, weaving in and out of trees, touching the surface of the water with my tiny feet. i can see the way the humans look at me when they see me fly. it's almost as if i can see their pain, their desire to fly, just as strong as my desire to smile. life is fair after all.

i tried to pray for a smile. i go to church everyday just to check up on god. i fly in through the windows of churches, i look at god and i listen to his stories. i do this everyday, but i still am not able to smile. it pains me. this is the only wish i have, i live for the day when i can finally smile. but i guess god has his reasons. i just wish he would overlook those reasons just this one moment for me. just once.

but i keep my faith despite that. despite everything.




delicious ambiguity.